GERMiN-lovees

2009-03-26T05:17:00.000-07:00

I couldnt feel your heart no more , its just a hollow me, one, alone.
who did you give it to?

i want friend.
i want friend.
i want friend.
xiiaoemogerl@hotmail.com
i wan friend.
i wan friend.

lmao.
sorry , im too lonely. ):
plspls tok t me on msn, you no need say hu u de, im really really lonely .
aaaaaaaaaa.

im mad.
):

someone say bad bad thing bout me @blog. i dun like.
but i hate t quarrel le ..
that day quarrel w/ a gang till 130am. so tired of fighting. if th person continue say bout me then i swear i'll do th same. i swear that i'll hold my words.

sian. everytime i never play com then mother will ask "quarrel w/ friend iszit, aiya your friends all like that de, faster go play com!"
then i will go play.
then she'll say "WOI no need study iszit?! off com lar!"
rofl.

ohyes,

reply t bavani's blog :
Th thing is i oso not angry w/ you, just upset ma, i oso nv ignore you. sorry idk how valuable your "sorry" was cus i never apologise t ppl before but i know my "sorry" isn very precious.
next time you apologise i'll feel happyhappy and cherish de.

zzz i sound like bai chi.

back t my blog.

yalayala i very spoilt nv say soli before. i die die oso dun admit my wrongdoings de.

waaaalaaan i want t play maple !
dont want private server anymore !
i miss echocolate (bootes)
T.T

aaaaa! D:

there's only one girl that can make you feel right.

WO BU KAI XIN !

ohyea! today on bus, i was listening t "you'll be okay-varsity"
then bus so noisy, this is what i heard .

when im alone, i'll tell myself i'll ding dong ohhhh
like th lyrics of a WHAT LA song .
mine was feeling ding dong
if you could only hahahahah th words i say
when your heart ding dong beside me
without you i can finally SIMI
i just want t hear you say YOUR PROBLEM ISZIT.
(peeps quarrelling on bus)

promise me must see all these vids lmao. roflzxcs.

like i veh bad person you know, i tell freddie/freddy (dk how spell) go wipe th cupboard for me cus i too short ):

2009-03-26T01:36:00.000-07:00

sighsigh going tuition soon,
today went t slack in class, was suppose t clean th whole classroom thou.
then th thing is that, jiale say got show in th other class but dont let me go, then in th end is t make me &freddie tog.
waaaaaaaalaaan he never on9 de.
aft that went mac w/ alisa &kavi.

2009-03-24T22:25:00.000-07:00

I feel like i know you from another life.

Wo bu kai xin !
hmphh
wo hen shang xin
wo hen ben dan
wo hen bei shang
wo hen mei yong
wo hen huai
wo shi fei wu

bu kai xin !
b
u

k
a
i

x
i
n

wei shen me?
yin wei yin wei yin wei -

wo jiu shi xi huan yong han yu pin yin bu ke yi a?

jin tian wo qu le west coast park sao di ==
you know what, i dreamt of de_ma_. < idiot dou cai de dao lo .
then i dreamt of kavi then my dream alw come true de, today came true lei.
i dreamt of her saying this this this, then she really said that today , very very exact you know !
everytime liddat one, when 4 yr old dreamt of this this this den now happen .
tmd -.-

bu shi la, bu shi yin wei zhe ge er shang xin , hai shi wei le ta er shang xin -sigh-

wo dou shuo wo shi ben dan le !

I wish i wasn so pressed by time.

hen stress lei, hen duo gong ke!

ha ha ha wo ai big bang .

this blogskin cant put vid de, so you can only see my blog liddat ->

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eeyer thinking bout las night then so pekcek, bavani so rude t me. then i so upset then throw tantrum, then blame all on botak din tok t him , sorry. cus no one so rude t me before den so fed up. then that day so devastated then mother bring me out walk walk .

dont look for me again and live your life.

sigh sigh i saw a wu ya when walking t sch, then like gonna have bad luck for th rest of th day .

i hold my words, i wont on msn foreverrrrrrrr . so if have emergency e.g. kavi jumped over tha moon , please tag me. i'll send my astronaut team go .

wo bu kai xin !

2009-03-24T03:38:00.000-07:00

z just quarrelled w/ bavani . "quarrel"

** initially my mood kns le la. he oso dun care me de, nidda get used t it -.-
walaaaan i swear i wont on msn anymore ! he doesn even care de. **** la throw away my phone ler, everyone liddat t me de , botak oso .

2009-03-23T18:06:00.000-07:00

Th best writer in town could not find words t say

fuck ..
overslept didnt go service learning wtf, i'll just pay back th 4hours on friday . grrrrrrrrrrr . ahhhhhhhhhhhhh what am i to do ! chou botak also didnt reply de . sian la at home, i was anticipating t have fun over there, z regret din go camp . cant even finish a.m homework la zzz == .
-.-ll

hands on, buddies .

WTH I SO UNLUCKY, NOW RAIN LER , SO GREY .
diao, rainy day stay at home alone is so not fun, mei yi shi hais .

cant blame my mother la, she did her job and woke me up @7am sharp zun zun, walan ystd i play gunbound w/ botak &han till song song . WTF << my window falling (i think)
storm lai le :D

wrecking my brain , going insane , again &again

z habbo people alw kp me, one say i ff too fast rev me 8c, one say i pc . ==
went ff again, thou i dread t. saw my son thr, nvm i break w/ his mother alr he wont cai wo -.- everytime play ff halfway then leave .
i hate nub hosters . wallwallwall , dono how fast de . ee i complain here thr de lmao .

an addiction when i cant stop

2009-03-22T09:46:00.000-07:00

omg yaye! downloaded gunbound,
you see, im a uber bored girl :DD

omgomg got this lengzai thr, flybikes.
&such a coincidence, met funashot there.

maaan i hate habbo for life.

im weee, sadded.

2009-03-22T05:47:00.000-07:00

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Was emoing at tiong bus stop today then saw fanxuan lmao i was wondering who was it cus he so different in home clothes hahaha:D
Everything so sian..

2009-03-21T07:16:00.001-07:00

2009-03-20T23:43:00.000-07:00

having a bad bad hairday today.
and mood so suuckish, ate alot alot still not satisfied. p.s. eating alot wont make him love me.
hais. i want t go out walkwalk forget everything, ltr going out w/ mother.

ltr must enjoy.

do hw (e.m, a.m, lit)
till tired le.
habbo oso habbo till tired le.

2009-03-20T22:55:00.000-07:00

ming ming cong qian lian zheng shi dou hen tian mi
xian zai zen hui shuo ju hua jiu leng dong yi bian .

Another chapter closed.

Another chapter closed
Anticipating illiteration.
Beyond tears
Scars flowing,
Lies a new chapter.

2009-03-20T07:35:00.001-07:00

After all these treatments you've given me, i still cant get used t your coldness,
i still cant get over you,
they said im strong, maybe, but i know im crying deep down.
thou crying ain th perfect word t describe th pain.
i cry
i throw tantrum
i laugh in tears
i hit myself

&you no longer care for me

Yes, im tired, very very fatigue of all these treatments you're giving me and as my friend said "you dont even deserve these"
i loled at his phrase thinking that im alr used t your treatment.
im so hurt.
ive changed so much for you.
原来我不爱了.
Yes, he said that many other people will tr8 me btr.
im so fking tired.

2009-03-19T06:12:00.000-07:00

我看见了.

无奈.而背地里笑她,

(她)作者本人不懂中文而做贼的喊抓贼. 无可奈何,好怨恨自己的朋友那么恨毒与嚣张,不知该从何说起.

这是其中之一 :

那天, 其中一个朋友告诉我她取了全班地四名,便嘲笑我无能.我当然是冒烟啦.我便起了个大争吵,

当她说不过

我时花言巧语说是想鼓励我加油.去你妈的黑人都是冷血的怪物.还装美如天仙.之前也是如此,她都

还没考试便笑我考得烂.

2009-03-19T04:30:00.001-07:00

Hmm.. Went tuition today,

Th teacher is kind of KI SIAO TODAY.

This is what he did (not in sequence)

Believe me, HE DID THAT! AND MORE LOL.

Credits t me fer drawing this piece of shyt HA

2009-03-18T04:54:00.000-07:00

wthwtf@##$%^&*(!!!!!

I HATE TIGHT SCHEDULES!
TMR 8- bring sis t sch
1030- fetch her
12- reach home
1- go bm foyer get sjab schedule for ndp training ==.
4- chem tuition

WTF IS THIS!?

2009-03-18T02:21:00.000-07:00

Crushed

I love this mmv !
esp. th ending.

I cant keep going this way.

(that guy ish hawt)

2009-03-18T02:18:00.000-07:00

Kangaeta, Kangaeta; Mou Modorenai.

Was giving botak quiz and quiz and quiz today! Maybe he got fed up :/
9 00 - Send Sister t sch
11 - Fetch her .

Today Han hao guai oh!
Never cry :D

2009-03-15T21:49:00.000-07:00

2009-03-14T06:45:00.000-07:00

What if earth loses its gravitional energy and clouds start t fall on us?

Last saturday .. .

Went t HQ for NDP2009 training, all selected. Maaaan, Its not that tough for tha first training after all :D 30min footdrill, 20min break, 30min Training, Last briefing for 10min or so, bread and drinks provided. Ive learnt my lesson for not bringing a waterbottle along. Wow our commander is from tha navy. Booooy, This year's NDP has some slight changes :/ (hints perhaps) , Uniform group will march one big round in tha stadium after standing for 50mins and then marching pass esplanade for 2.4km non stop facing th public. Im so gonna worry bout not having enough energy t finish th 2.4km.

_l_ spammers in habbohotel.

Si hcs. ==

Spoilt my wholewhole mood for th day &pls, don't ask if i play habbo. You'll get my nerves jumpy i swear.

During th training .. .

So dam squeezy when turn , maybe right marker's arm short :X Then keep kena hit by other people's knuckles while arm swing.

HAHAHA!

2009-03-12T01:30:00.000-07:00

2009-03-11T04:18:00.001-07:00

what if i changed my looks ? will you guys still recognise my character?

omgomg. TODAY's sjab is .. -.- no footdrill but run t touch backgate w sec1s and sec2s twice, then ran w sec2s round tha whole school, booshiet thats a hell outta my body you see ! :DD
me, siti, alisa and syirah signed up for tha ndp 2009 contigent at marina bay , after persuading ourselves that we wont die in th training ))):
since mr wun said that its so rare .. and excluded th comm team .. ohya, need tell bavani and kavi that sjab camp is coming on 12-14june so please do not book anything beforehand . maaaaan th 2008 camp was fun thou its a 8hr lesson (recap for many many days !)
hahahaha ! told them !
tyvm kavi for saying that blogging bad things bout others instead of telling em str8 in their faces are cowards and exceedingly lame :DD im supporting yo ! cus hor, i kena insulted indirectly for th secondtime if you notice one of our friend's blog , ty, you're very clever if you know that she's referring t me :DD
sorry no baby fights, i dont insult babys on my blog unless you're a THINKING adult ((((:

i'll rmb t love, you taught me how (:

today someone kept prank calling me, si bei buey song , i sure find out th culprit cus i bo caller id, i'll direct it t my friend w caller id then ni jiu kuai dian qu si before i come w a parang .

OMGOMG OUR SCH ON CHN 5 NAO ! c girls . or b idk .
chey, demas not thr ): LOL .
keep it as a secret okay !

2009-03-10T02:12:00.000-07:00

I'm th original .

Luozhi : Haha :D

Today,
everyday will bad mood de, today is severeeeeeeeeeee aaaaaaaaahahahaaaaaaaa just in tha morning neh . nao is hyper i dinkkkk ?
lmao i think fendi is madddd .
aaaaa ms kong and mr wun never come .
lol doing news paper writing during english class then need photo and caption ma then need t draw th people involved in th act , then i was looking at fiona and drawing her and wrote "heroin act, kena whacked by alan yeo with a spanner" then i drew hanrong and calvin . maaan you shouldn take a lil glance at my drawing , it looks so .. -.- LOL .
ty fiona for being my model . lol . thou she dono :DD
then a maths so sian lo , see first qn then donwan do le , first so hard le th rest sure hard hais demoralising us . rofl ! maaaan how do i get a fucking doctor t write me a leetter for tmr obs ?
heloooo mine is long term , forever de illness leish , who will bother t write it ? ltr i go obs then illness come again how ? then pain till bangwall like last time then faint and vomit thrice again how ? later hurt myself t ease th pain uncontrollably how ? then kena sent home right ? then mother give black face lian chou chou , then how ? then father oso buey song rite ? then how ? no dinner right ? no dinner how ? will still die in th end right ? may as well don go la ! rofl .
and hor ,
..
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..
..
..
die le how ?
i haven kill timothy and botak how ? so many goals haven achieved how ? i wanna work and achieve staff segeant de how ? later i die le face appear at headlines "obs kills students" then fmaily paiseh how ? paiseh le then quarrel, quarrel le how ? aiyooo .

2009-03-09T01:55:00.000-07:00

http://www.thechihuahuaguide.com/Chihuahua_Pictures/Chihuahua2.jpg
taken from here . (credits)

I finally found th words t say , finally rmbed what happened in school .
So heres my long and boring ahma story and give me a tag k ! :DD
Today i was reading th news in english class then saw a price thingy for chasier t scan de den was looking at t serial number of tha newspaper ,
Here goes my long list of 'what ifs' for alisa :
I asked her these "Alisa, what if th world ran outta numbers for serial numbers ? I guess they'll use alphabets instead ? Alisa, what if they ran outta abcs ?"
ME "Alisa, what if i m sucked into tha black hole ?"
SHE "Then say bye bye"
ME "Will i die?"
SHE "Definitely"
ME "SCIENTISTS ARE LOSERS CUS THEY DIN GO IN BEFORE AND IM SURE THAT I WONT DIE"
ME "Alisa, what if i went t tha bermudas triangle ?"
SHE "Then you'll say bye again , but i ain sure if th superstitious thing will come , as in people will really disappear there"
ME "SCIENTISTS ARE LOSERS CUS THEY DIN GO AND TRY , ha-ha-ha then i'll go and float thr for a lil while , while you stand on an island and watch if i'll disappear ."
SHE "Sure"
Me "Alisa, What if our island submerge?"
She "IT WONT SUBMERGE CUS ITS LIKE THA TLIKE THAT LIKE THAT !"
Me "Serius? So we wont die?"
She "lol"
Me "Alisa, What if i die th next moment?"
She ".."
Me "Alisa, what if there's too much rubbish on earth in which we cant even eliminate them?"
Alisa "Throw em into tha sea"
Me "What if th water gets too polluted and we died due t lack of water?"
Alisa "Burn em, send em t space and let em continue moving forward"
Me "What if th air gets polluted?"
Alisa "It wont, they wont stop moving in space as its a vacuum"
Me "What if i keep going forward in space? will there b a wall t stop me saying that its th end of space? Or will black hole kill me ?"
Alisa "No, space is veryvery large and theres no end t put you t a stop and yes, who knows if black hole will come?"
Me "BUT SCIENTISTS ARE LOSERS CUS THEY DIN GO FORWARD T SEE IF SPACE IS REALLY UNLIMITED!"
Me "What if theres aliens on mars?"
Alisa "Then let em be"
Me "What if they comes here and kills me and rules tha world?"
Alisa "Then we'll become extinct and aliens will be th next creatures on earth"
Me "Will i have superpowers if im one of them?"
Alisa ".."
Me "Alisa, What if th earth no longer flies and it just drops ?"
Alisa "Then god will hold it"

:DD
In other words, im stupid lmao .
Theres still so manymany muchmuch things i dont know !
And if you knows some, you can tag me >.>
lololol !

p.s. i pity alisa.

Then ltr, walked brian t my bus stop , then met kl and sent brian onto th bus and walked home w/ kl .
i ended me and kl's conversation with this 'hey, i like demas'
LOLOL!

2009-03-07T04:58:00.000-08:00

7/3/9

my worse stead ever .

a 12-yr-old kiddo in habbo tells th whole world that im a flirt, oh yes i am but out of all my 30girls, she's th worst man . Unlike icelestial .

habbo ign = promiseme

disiao her , make her kamlan , make her laukui , make her lapsap , fuck her upside down for all i care . i neve rill treated her in these few weeks with that whore . and she strted t be mean t me , she think that i always good t her wont scold her wont pour out vulgarities ?

prove you wrong gorgeous , don go round tellign your korkors that i bullied you cus you're just a hopeless aimless 12-yr-old lamo . who will even care bout you in th first place, infact , im glad tha ti ditched you mother fucking jidangao .

cheebye .

2009-03-06T05:54:00.000-08:00

ha-ha-ha recited KSJ 12pages of notes, full of notes .

nao my eyes have lines and words on it . Then if you cant rmb during th test just look at my eyes for th answers . Lmao .

2009-03-05T23:11:00.000-08:00

over due pics.

hahaha i look like im tha tallest LOL.

2009-03-05T22:46:00.000-08:00

i cried
i smiled
i laughed
i loved
i missed

i
am
so
so
sad

can
i
not
blog
?

say
no
now,
i
am
sitting
on
th
roof
of
my
flat
with
my
lappy
.

good
bye
ha
ha
:D

i
said
that
i
am
sad
!

2009-03-04T04:23:00.000-08:00

2009-03-04T03:09:00.000-08:00

Disgusted by th thickness of human skin.

Today sjab get segeant rank siol ! Passed nco painfully :DD
omgomg keep thinking of taeyang .
ystd 3/3/9 was our 1st year 1 month anniversary .
Well, he didn't talk t me at all as usual .

2009-03-03T01:15:00.000-08:00

She's being irritated

Man ! You guys have t watch this vid, its taeyang !

2009-03-02T04:35:00.000-08:00

Asked Arianna for break , finally .
I thought that i'll heave a sigh of relief .. and yet i feel so heavy hearted , just like losing a friend . She's been with me for at least three months and .. I just thought we can be friends after all but ,
girls .. By right, she's th one only tt lasted so long w/ me . At least i didn get any 3rd parties within th 2 months . Shes so understanding and still so adorable .
Not that im a lesbian , i just want t be friends w/ her .

2009-03-02T02:06:00.000-08:00

She`s probably sad _l_

Too much homework t cope, but its fine as compared t mrs tang 's homework quantity . This skin is so fabby but guylish tho , neverminds Bigbang (L) .
Couldn find any skins with T.o.p in it . Taeyang is not bad either >.>
Have Chinese spelling for Mr Kho's class tomoro and E maths test for Ms Lim Lay Eng 's Class :D
Mood today is joyful :DD Keep sms-ing HuiMin during recess or during intervals in school . She's so encouraging sia , keep tell me study study , must do hw hw hw ! (: Cus there`s a period whereby i totally gave up and threw away all th homework , scribbled on textbooks and skips cca . rofl . Life is a total slack like that , fucking nice tho . But bo bian CA1 leish . Today keep daydreaming that i want fastfast go t Temasek poly ! More freedom ! Luckily i took chemistry , can go do part - time at my mother 's science lab company @ Jurong . She's a great teacher ! :X So good t her students sia , i want t join her !
Fast fast graduate leis , then wont stay in bukitmerah and get discriminated or mocked at .
He on also never say Hello siol .

Ystd went t roll holodice (Dice) in Habbo then i was like 'Let me see my luck for tomoro (Today)'
Then got 1 twice . So true , indeed . Late f bus , then faster eat burger go wait for lift , then one of th lift got all th buttons pressed ! Then must wait for another crowded one ): Then when go back home , missed 63 then walked down t 33 bus stop and it drove off ! D: Waited for ard 20 mins under th scorching sun .

2009-03-01T03:35:00.000-08:00

diulian,
talking to huimin now then she say her school sec2 alr learnt acceleration, velocity w/e.
Then tim sch oso, maths now is like our e maths.
blame myself bu hui du shu. toobad. :(((
cus of psle, then so much difference, last time bu dong shi, bu hui du shu. :(
xian zai, zai pro dou mei yong le.

2009-02-27T01:22:00.001-08:00

a a a a a a
lmao was watching i am sam/i am your teacher, korean show , cus got t.o.p from big bang ma, LMAO he's so cool and th show is so damn hilarious boy roooofffl.

2009-02-27T00:25:00.000-08:00

Habboing-
So frustrated when someone unknown just drops by and claim that i'm ice.fairy, i said i'm not means not right, now so buey song then quarrel with th one that keeps claiming that i'm ice. Oh fuck. -pwned- nabeh so long didn't see him. Walan he claimed that he's my habbogirl's brother, then i was like you 'who you siol?' i wanted to deny that i have no habbogirl as she's a whole lot of a tigress , boy.

Went t macdonalds w/ alisa, then saw my juniors in sjabee, th batch i kind of detested, ohwells i sibei cincai de. They stared at her, group of nerds with thick thick specs and long over-knee skirt talking like paikia sia, they strolled briskly here and there beside me and alisa's table then was like shouting 'suck like hell lah!' then i said 'i dare you say suck cork here or get lost nao' then they buey song keep makin a din, such a disgrace claiming that i'm form bukitmerah. bhbs. nvm loh i also no feeling de. Then went to ntuc to get some stationeries and went home. Ohyeahs went t comlab during pct, and was reading my friend's blog. Man, bryan promised that he'll follow me t ms lim's homeroom for some queries then he went missing -.- you see loh my mood kns today.

z i ought i mention this to my readers, someone just insulted me indirectly thru her lan-jialat-cham-bhb poem. she's th f i r s t okay. i'll tell you guys th details veryvery soon. This disgusted me.

2009-02-26T02:22:00.000-08:00

Mother treats me and papa so ..
like trap us.

idk why she dislike us so much, come back vent anger on em and scold me , scoldscoldscold but peeps said that its meant for our own good, but i don find it good for me. Her scoldiing is like 'i hate my first daughter, things never seem to turn out right when she's here, that useless thing staying here gives us bad luck. ccb'

Then i always crycrycry, but used now. Donwan coem home early le, but of cus i wish i could cus very tiring outside, bag os heavy.

papa oso wish to come home but mother dun let, they wan kick us out. ))): nabeh tmr i go out till 5 luh.

2009-02-26T02:01:00.000-08:00

aaaa so lonely today D:
went to buy specs during recess, was asking th guy loads of questions, then chatting in th end.
sian la.

2009-02-25T04:25:00.000-08:00

我就来打个比方列如今日的所见所闻.

It tried and tried, but to no avail. The swan was green with envy while looking at th other swans' wings spread and fly, and as they plunged into freedom, the swan felt a gush of energy. It finally flew freely, but low and unstable. Then, an ugly duckling stepped onto her wing deliberately and mocked "look at you, dont pretend to fly when you dont know how to. Besides, you're exceedingly ugly"

Why did i say ugly duckling instead of letting it be a swan?
Th character is not very beautiful as compared to an elegant swan and ducks dont fly. So why? I thought human were warm, red blood is flowing in their body. It hurts me while reading this story, yes very very hurt for th swan and as well as for th pathetic duck.
Th swan did not complain at all but endure in silence.

Someone told me that humans were far more cruel than animals, but majority claimed that its th survival war.

2009-02-23T21:43:00.001-08:00

Adore that unusual one.

Man, look at th blur pic, monkey in th center, can see? its not that obvious. th fury monkey is digging or eating sth but it seems like a white bottle or stuff to me.
Then while walking outta th forest, saw a family of monkeys , its freaking adorable, boy. 2 big fury , dirty monkeys and 3 small ones swinging here and there, jumping onto th ground to meet their parents.

Went cross country with alisa today.

DAMN, tio scammed in ff in habbohotel.

Then i wrote to th MOD as my friend is at loss:

MOD, i want you to justify this incident , bolo11themasterz agreed that he will give 50c as th ff prize but instead he kicked and banned all.

Then a MOD replied :

Sorry you played in private rooms at your own risk.

I replied :

In other words you mean im at my own loss for trusting him? Are you sure that its th fairest answer that you can assure me?

Then she didnt reply anymore, how i wish its MOD Julee incharge.

She's seriously against scammers and i trsut that she'll take action towards it.

xcountry run so fun ! :D

2009-02-23T20:43:00.001-08:00

TAGS :

Bavani - you can continue to slash then as thats just my own opinion. maybe its relieving stress to you as i've been thru all these before. And, slashing do suck if you look from another perspective. ):

Potato - sarker! LOCK YOUR Laobu outside lA! :DD

2009-02-20T04:03:00.000-08:00

Fuck, i see my friend slash here there so buey song,
i sibei against slashing, i find it sososo sinful that i stopped 2 years ago -.-
i cant believe that i self mutilated once or rather i hurt my only will to survive.
idk if my friends will get it but i find this stressful, good that i took literature.

All right im being harsh, people who self mutilated are escapists or rather cowards.

-germinxdxp(:
my bad, its for you guys' own good.

2009-02-20T02:52:00.000-08:00

Kisses you over dotted lines

Today is so not right,
Not going into details.

booooyyyy i did sth so unbelievable :3
i ditched two girls and rejected one ROFL.

In memories of ICE.FAIRY

changed new habbo account , bai to ice.fairy,

burn that pic of your fugly look LMAO.

Hais i miss you ice, used that account since primary three ))):

Too bad, people say you're fugly and have a girly name.

BYE TO YOU AND MY 27DAYS OF HC UN-USED.

2009-02-17T04:30:00.001-08:00

Nice? see th white goth, tallest thr shuai bo ?
LOL all big bang mv fucking nice.

2009-02-17T02:15:00.000-08:00

A typical humming tune

I could find a single remedy of how to pull thru ,
But i know, You're still holding onto my hands, you still are.
For what i fear is th structure of an essay.

2009-02-17T01:24:00.000-08:00

At least im catching up now, finally picked myself up.
Doing homework now instead of waiting for you.

Man, tell me why did Ms Petrine Woo ignore me ?
Put yourself in my shoes , asses.

Babe you did a great impact on my life,
I cant sleep for several nights, i slept in class and didn't do homework for 1 week.
At least im standing up again.

Kavi keep making fun of me and edmund, walan i don like him liao laaa. My mood kns today. Everyone laugh at me and him, zzz. He said he dobn like me what , i just keep looking at him cus he look like botak what.

2009-02-16T00:43:00.000-08:00

faster write down what happened today before i brainwash.
Okay, WHY MUST SS BE TH FIRST LESSON OF TH FIRST DAY OF TH WEEK THEN PHYSICS, THESE TWO SUBJECTS SO DAM SIANZXH DE LEI. Still must write essay for ss then nearly fall asleep in class. Physics worst lo.
Then Art lesson brian keep dancing, want see ?

HEREEEE :DD

He say dowan talk to me >.> see la so bad

2009-02-15T01:53:00.000-08:00

王八蛋

Tio scammed by a fucker while hosting ff, he trade me den accidently give him prize.
Then i wa slike 'fucker, hope his ball tio disease, wife run away"
fuck la, Don wan host liao, chiobu run liao lo. cb.

2009-02-14T08:19:00.000-08:00

看不见您的笑容我么睡得着

Went to play Habbo with sister, thou i find it veryvery kiddish.
Wanna reminisce, Then went FF after sister off, kept thinking of derek whom always ruin habbo and prank people with me. I checked my friendlist, It says "Derek@19 last Login 2007-17-02"
T.T
I think he's been hacked ):
We went inactive without a goodbye after receving PSLE results, he went to Woodlands Sec.
Then never on again.
)))): I havent got chance to tell him that i'm a girl .. Derek ))): Come pei wo play Habbo again leiiissss .
Alone on Valentine`s Day !

K la not so demanding, At least Arianna pei wo thou she's veryvery sick today, as well as th last few days after she went for her interview, She just flew to Sarawak This morning. Hope that she'd be all right. At least didn't disappoint her on Valentine's day, Didn't turn her into Valentine's Day lonely club member as she mentioned.

LMAO. IRENEEE i saw your comment for Brian, tyvm.

Just now, chatted with Brian on phone, he was talking so loudly, so fierce. Keep say din drink Milk DOT.
Then we went to have dinner at home.

Botak 你说说看,我看不见你该如何是好, 好情绪化哦.怕今晚会无法入眠.

Lol, Brian replied me "bye" T__T

光头晚安!

2009-02-14T04:07:00.000-08:00

Typical Promise

Promise is such a blank, dull, empty nutshell

Another mmv made by me ..
Alot of effort in doing this .. Well, hard work wasn paid off.
On at 1240pm, now, 8.09am.
Extremely dull, as time drags my mood to an extend.
Wait for him to on till gonna cry le. Nvm ba.

Ima fly to th moon up high,
grab a star write your name inside~

2009-02-14T01:29:00.001-08:00

2009-02-12T06:16:00.001-08:00

listening to this song, look at 1:27 its exactly like how we began, im a very sentimental one.

2009-02-12T04:30:00.000-08:00

Today me, alisa and brian forget must go physics lab, all climb till die till 4th floor den U turn down 2nd floor LOL. Then pair up with charles for experiment .. I din talk thru out th lesson .. I don even know him.
Then Brian was eating marshmallow or even sleeping on them during art lesson.
Time flies i thought that its still monday you see ..
Dammit Kavi keep telling edmund that i like him, he just resembles botak ma. Now he so buey song liao, si bei pekcek . lol.

2009-02-10T05:49:00.000-08:00

Too bad, you lost.

She still ignores me you see.
Its getting my nerves jumpy. EXTREMELY JUMPY. BOILING.
Its my ..

mother ..
dot.

nvm i cant be bothered anyways.

2009-02-10T05:29:00.001-08:00

Man idk how to sit for lit test, Now doing recap.
Level4 philosophy is so hard.
I can only do that is certain essays, which were numbered.

you still look beautiful to me
heckcare me, i love this sentence.
For th elegance it suggested.
aaa lit crapper. I dread going to lit lessons these days as im like sososooso an outcast thr.

Just saw fiona's tag,
im like feeling so much better now. tyvm (:

2009-02-10T02:20:00.000-08:00

Its horrible, ystd mother scolded me stupid when i scored 69 for chinese, say i disgrace to higher chinese.

Then i cried till eyes swell, cant open eyes today. Then cried in school again.

2009-02-09T03:58:00.000-08:00

Tears rolled down like scattered pearls, no. i will be strong.
Tears are just welled up in my eyes, I dont even know that he's going offline. I'm still up waiting, waiting .
Until i noticed, everyone knew, except me. I wasn sad, wasn, this happened so many times.

No , i'm so frustrated so being so dumb, so fucking frustrated. Yes, i hate myself so much for being incredibily stupid, i cried, i threw, i ruin , my room.

Listening to th song 'one by epik high'

Fuck, i wish i could just pull out a gun from my pocket and point it right at th spot, th spot where i will lose my eyesight, my hearing, my everything, my life, most importantly, him . I just wanna bangbangbang like aidou senpai and shoot myself dead. Or maybe , eat my pills like i once did, several pills, forced down my gullet. Then closed my eyes as i laid on my sofa.
Put on a smile after i woke up . No, i make sure i don get a chance to wake up or even smile.
No, or maybe shuff th cupboards for my big penknife like i once did, just do it.
Stab it straight down onto my pulse. Let those tears flow out profusely.

But i wouldn do these anymore.

I still need him, take another wound for him.
Th only thing i could do now is to cover my eyes and let tears flow out, scream madly at th air. Till i could no longer cry, and close my eyes, put on a smile and boot th computer to reach for him. Yearning for another wound.

pathetic

5mins later,
Smile, i have to.
Go and get my dinner and enjoy life to th peak of th fucking gist.

2009-02-08T03:14:00.000-08:00

Reminiscing, knowing th fact that he no longer need me makes me collapse onto my stacks of books, knowing th fact that he wont come back to me no matter how much i study. Unwilling to struggle to get up for another try, i stopped. I stopped whereby he held me, knowing that we're gone. Its over.
My heart crumbled, so crushed, unable to reform back into an unhurt one. I saw, red flowing out profusely.

2009-02-08T01:38:00.001-08:00

2009-02-08T01:33:00.001-08:00

Back from A.M tuition,
Now doing Physics,
Still have A.m Journal writing, Chem ws, Physics Ws, A.m Ws, etc.
Physics will be a big problem since i have bad memory.
I just learnt displacement and velocity for like 5mins ago and now i have difficulties answering them.
Lily Aunt just came to visit my house to see if Han is in a good condition.

2009-02-08T00:19:00.000-08:00

Boy i`m so gonna quit blogging x__x
I find that its a total waste of time to code for perfection and blog bout daily lives, i'm just another typical human, who would bother to read mine anyways.

2009-02-06T08:38:00.000-08:00

This is devastating. Heard this story before.
Today ? its 1231am now, i usually forgets what happened today when i get home, i never remembered it. So im like taking each day for granted, i have no habits of writing but i've tried that before, whats amusing is that after i worte what happened eachday, i'll just quickly scan th pages when im bored to reminisce and i'll feel soso surprised to think that thishthisthis happened today as if i've never felt it before. Its like i just totally forgets what happened. Thank god for forgiving me , for commiting this grave mistake to take eachday for granted, i really don know what to do , my memory simply deteriorates everyday. People say playing computer daily makes your memory worse . I mean, its scientifically proven.

2009-02-04T02:15:00.000-08:00

dot ..
good tht i hugged two girls .. sexually ((:
today suck.
kavi and bavani was talking so loudly bout me that i could hear it.
ya i know bavani would read this anw.

one, i hate middleman
two, get lost
three, don appear in my sight
four, kavi, eat shit.

kept thinking of himmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ))):

2009-02-03T04:33:00.001-08:00

kay i know my drawing suck ):

this was drawn long ago.

im soso happy today that its 1st year anniversary with botakkk ((:

then my words got supa big lol.

ive never wrote stuff that big before o___o

haven do homework , later th purechem kavi will look down on me again.

then there it goes again.

wait , tryna get brian's words pierce into my mind "don care bout em, study at your own pace"

hope i'll get it stuck in cus im very stuubborn.

lol.

2009-02-03T02:27:00.000-08:00

ahhhh scary
LOL.
today was no big deal either.
i created that face lol.
Its just that kavitha pissed me off. totally. trustme, she did it boy.
idc how many times she tries to ignore me, i ain gonna smile either, so lets give it a one point perspective, i lost my flavour.
you told me that you'll cry if i found new friends in 3g, and you found new frens and dumped me straight away. hilarious,cry, i dont. i got so f*ked up &why dont you sit with your new friends.
no, look, it ain jealous from th start.
Its trust. Its - do you hold your word?
i know people like you don, so be it, don speak, and no one will claim that you don hold promises.
no, not promises, this is just a lil yes/no condition, be it promises or w/e , this is trivial, and you want me to sit and watch over your lil tiny shell while you feed on th edible stuff?
a lil tinge of disgust.
i don like it.
if i lost my flavour, don leave it lying.

2009-02-02T06:03:00.001-08:00

Be a good girl, new Sec 3s
ihyihyihy
too much homeworkkkkkkkkkkk
1.Finish up lit chapter 12 [write notes]
Good : Its UNFINISHABLE, SKIP IT.
2.E MATHS
Good girl : K FINISH UP TH LAST FEW QUESTIONS
Bad : Nah, its just those few. I`ll do it in class tmr, she's got too many students to notice me.

2009-02-02T01:12:00.000-08:00

Argggghhhh mp4 cracked when i bring to school for presentationnnn ))):
This sucked my mood insideout, absolutelydrained.
nolaaaa i very patienttt deeee ((:
Ms lim present solution then miss out one zero, everyone was like 'BOOO' everytime she made a mistake.
Then Evan said "Zero veh big lei!just like you gave me 1000dollar miss out a zero how?!"
ROFLLLLL.
Then another mistake, i no reaction de la, i finish all liao just waiting for her to finish hers. Just sitting there. Cus i do maths always miss out 2-3 steps jump to answers, dam risky but i lazy maahhh since answer correct, no extra miles please, i very fussy de.
Lmao talking to botak, chapter one : cut th fking cow's eye
ROFLLLL.
back to topic,
then whole class was like 'BOOO' 'HORRR'
Ms lim so jidong ,
take marker slam onto whiteboard edge.
Then all scared, so loud.
Ear pain.
She's like 'I WONT FEEL EMBARRASSED THOU I MAKE MISTAKES, I MADE MISTAKES DOESN MEAN IM LOUSY OKAY, I TEACH SEC4S SO I AIN LOUSY TEACHER"
LOL.
In other words : Im a supaaa pro cher, i teaches pro classes , i make mistakes.
Good, cher i like it, you never feel embarrssed and yet you try over and over again.
CHEEEEEERS! ILY<3
LOOOL.

germinsaysshe'sgheyishlesbian

then i went art, a maths retest with brian.
after school he called his dad and was like 'hello laopa, nabeh'
LOL
if i like that, papa sure hoot me.
IHATE U GEOGRAPHY, IDK WTFORWTH IS GEOG, NV STUDY B4

2009-02-01T02:57:00.001-08:00

2009-01-31T21:06:00.000-08:00

Last night,
I started to bleed all overrrr, it stained th floor. Then Han told me to do something for her immediately then I limped to my room to get something to stop th bleeding and She came in.
She shouted "I told you to get th parrot stand NOW! WTH are you doing here?!" Then i just stood there. Then mother said "Cant you explain to her that you're bleeding?" I said "She wont Understand"
Then i just stood there as she scold me, blood was stained all over my attire.

2009-01-31T06:26:00.000-08:00

Lets have one last kiss

Today wasss fabbbyyyy :DD
A guy came &fixed MioTv &New Modemmm ((:
Then Dad said ''This is for your new Desktoppp"
>:DDDD

WEEEE

But its so not okay at night.
Continue Blogging later >.>

2009-01-30T02:31:00.002-08:00

This game must be played on. till i've reached th fullest gist to clear th mess and see th fucker before my eyes. In and out.
Who knows if i won now, i haven't reach th highest climax.

2009-01-29T22:37:00.000-08:00

Lmao. Th medicine - Capsule was like, theres instructions how to take th capsule printed on th plastic , it was like "Suck it 3times a dayy" rofl :DD
K, time for medicine, now suck it.
((:
LOL.

ihateyouuu :@

:/ i kind of miss him, my goodygoody fwenn.
He kept encouraging me when i cried &made freakkyy ffffaces >.>
&taught me alotalot new stuff, sacrificed your recess
Nolar. I saw you running to me while drinking applejuice, sucking th straw LOL.

:o i didnt eat much these days either,
lost appetite, didnt eat my three meals these days :#

Lets lay here for a while &cherish everymoment

2009-01-29T05:34:00.001-08:00

Diedie must crawl to school tmr.
went tuition, so giddy then gonggong look at cher when he chat with me.
Cough till i look so rosy le LOL.
never heard of things like that.

This kind of caught my attention: Jeffrey said ''its strange how people got bored fo th game and quit ; &its strange how people got bored and played th game''

germin

2009-01-28T23:58:00.000-08:00

ahhh missed two days of school )):
should i go for chem tuition ltr?
i think gonna vomit blood le lmao.
cough till 4am then sleep.
rofl at nigahiga's movies in minutes th grudge.
i think i shud go :DD
bo bian if i die halfway in tuition lol.

sadddd got 7/40 for e maths test. i wonder hows it going for a maths and physics test DD:
Mom just said ''wa how come neh?''
thats all.
lol.

germin.

2009-01-26T05:38:00.000-08:00

mrs nggg
its realllyreally hard to be happy ..
so what if you pretend to be happy?
wont you feel unhappy deep down?

2009-01-25T07:48:00.001-08:00

AHH I HATE YOU ROOTBEER
1 DOLLAR DOWN MY BLOCK!
OWWWW STOMACHE..
IHATEUUUUUUUUUU
FOREVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
I PROMISE VENDING MACHINES TT I WUN TOUCH YOU ANYMORE

AHHH chou guangtoubao babypineappletartbaobei lmao.
for going offline!
for telling me baibai!
hmph!
for being so fierce!
im soso lonely
&iloveuuu

AHHH RECEIVED EMAIL FROM FS THAT AMY UPDATED HER BLOG!
ARGHHH WHO CARESSS
I DON EVEN KNOW HER!
I SEE HER PIC FROM FAR HOUGHT IS MEI NU MA
DEN CLICK LIAO BECOME CUTE AUNTIE

2009-01-24T21:41:00.000-08:00

ahhh forget got nanometre w/e project .
howhowhowtdo!
luckylucky, going out w/ kl to cc do project.
omgomg i scared leis!
if anyone got take note of what ms lim layeng say hor pls tag me there <.<
cus he say alotalot ca marks lei.
initially i tot she jokejoke so i never write down details,
i thought optional nia ..
:DDD

AHHH nvmnvm not th first time tio from ms lim liao, nvm lahh i also lim deh ma.

sobsob toopid shorteh pls talk to me soon.

i still hatehatehate you chou kavathi lmao.
you then extra !
if i extra then don call me go out with you lo, so simple.

2009-01-24T07:47:00.000-08:00

ahhh i love vk!
loools.
now so lonely.
heyyyy jy mei also wears pyjamas ma!
Then i wear barbie or hellokitty de tt chou botak will laugh HMPH!
IHATEUUUUUUUUU
IM SO GOING TO BUY TWILIGHT , NEWMOON, ECLIPSE OKAY!
I hate a maths and e maths now, i dun even noe what th heck mr teo talking bout , keep copy down steps till angry with cher liao

ahh bangala , joel , ben , jun an , teddy mei where are you guyssssssss
i wonder if everything's okay ..

2009-01-24T07:32:00.002-08:00

2009-01-24T07:32:00.001-08:00

2009-01-23T03:18:00.000-08:00

Went shopping with Bavani, Alisa and Kavi ..
Im so extra there.. as said by kavi ..
she added salt to my wound ..
they know my mood very sucky cus of hyt le ..
now still liddat to me ..
Then went arcade compete basketball with bavani and alisa, they still won..
Then alot games..
At least things got better after she left ..
then went kfc with rest f them ..
bavani bought glowsticks..
here's th pics..

haha thats my ring.

lmao. mine's green

Hey! this is th cute beetle in my house.
i was veryvery sad that day and saw him limping in th living room, so i push him to his destination.
then i talk to him bout my trouble.
Then he came to me ltr,
i wonder how is he now ..
i just leant on my parrot's cage and never moved ..
i think he justpassed away as he;s really very weak.
but don worry, i prayed hard for you, little guy.
Lmao.

Today's new yr celebration was boring..
all guys' eyes pop out when th sexy girl shaking. dot.
girls were talking.

2009-01-22T05:42:00.000-08:00

Lmao. I love th chem tuition cher (!)
He 's explaining bout diffusion,
then he say that solid can be diffused but only when th two solids are very close (touching) eachother, to make us believe him, he took a box and pressed into onto his cheek and said 'later th particles are th box will be on my face and my face's cheek cells will be on th box ROFL.
Then he told me to ans sth yes/no then i said 'no' he said 'why' i replied 'cus idk' then he was like 'DANGGG' haha.
Then when Carina cant ans his question, he acted soooo angry as if he's gonna kill us.
haha you should see his expression rofl.

// i 'll still love you thou you no longer need me
// i'll still wait until you finished playing that girl
// i'll let you use me
// i'll let you break my heart
// i'll still wipe away my tears and i say i love you

germin

2009-01-21T23:56:00.000-08:00

WEEE NO LESSON TMR! <3
I hate OBS Camps. >.>
Its soso tiring.
Should i go? Pulau Ubin .. So far , 5 days.
Nvm ! I go taiwan trip and go Pular Ubin ?
(((:

Went library with Kavi then now going for tuition soon.

2009-01-21T06:33:00.000-08:00

AHHH )):
yizhimei is over !
How handsome of jun ki ..
Lmao.
No late night shows D:
AHH i uninstalled maple :D

2009-01-21T02:46:00.000-08:00

Kay im gonna get a playlist real soon to get rid of my boredom.
Just reached home after st john, Staff Chin Fung was freaky man.
I forgotten to greet th seniors and my whole group kena pumping.
St john was okay except for being trained by Staff.
How tough.
I still couldnt catch up to E maths, Talking bout e maths, i nearly cried after doing th test. I couldn solve any of th questions except for th question that calculators are allowed.
But no, im gonna mug, bulk up for maths.
Its just that ive never been this way before.
Ive never met a challenge like that before.

Boy, Im really really devastated bout what you've done.

2009-01-20T06:08:00.001-08:00

Currently ..
I m seriously worried bout E maths .
Ms lim goes on and on like a machine gun, when she goes thru th questions, i was busy doing corrections like everyone else, and then when i finished writing, she's two questions ahead of us and there goes all th explanation , i missed out two questions.
Too much homework everyday, i gave up and din touch it.
She said that she don wish that we'll be weak. So she'll go extremely fast and expects it to get in our head as fast as th speed of light. Hell no.
We missed out everything and instead of being that fast, we went downdowndown to th very flat core.
OHH PLEASEEE >.>

Regarding A maths, i have no problems with paying attention in class. Just th hardcore questions, but with th help or Mr Wun, I solved it. ((:

For lit, there's alotalot to read but no complains actually as i love literature haha.

For chem, well i kind of followed on and i could answer questions teacher ask. Thats great, but physics were no good, but Mrs Chang is great ! ((:
Physics is just bout myself, i hate calculations , in fact, i hate hitting th calculate so i love mental sums. My memory sucks thou so here comes Physics and there goes my brain.

And my love, Its no good at all, he didn't talk to me, he's too busy with his own server. Maybe im just a patch of grass. Knowing going online will make me crestfallen, i wont take that road no more.

2009-01-20T04:06:00.000-08:00

Dont do that,

I don like it.

I dont pay by instalments.

Dont stab my heart bit by bit each time, day by day.

Take th plunge and stab deep down , as deep as possible, let me cry out everything and heal asap.

Let me let go of you, i dont wan to cry day by day.

But i wont let anyone hurt it again, im too afraid to fall in love again.

i cant sleep day by day

i cant let go as each day awaits for my decision

you no longer need me

2009-01-20T00:49:00.000-08:00

How much more repetitions ?
I claimed, That i hate to repeat, not even a second time.
And now, you,
you heard me, i asked you a simple pathetic question , to think that you heard it and treat it as a crap,
You may jolly well get your fucking face outta my sight.
So what if you're my blood sister?
Who knows if you're one?
You slammed my headphone onto my laptop and to think that you wiped a smile off your face upon knowing that i noticed you using my things.
No i don mind people using my stuff but you slammed it.
Wipe that attitude off your face, i hate it.
You displayed that face which means that you're confident that i wont rebel you?
And hence you ran away when i threw th chair ?
When i shouted at you ?
Acting innocent?
Be a deaf then?

I ain in no wrong , i just reached home and receive these. What th fuck is this?
You have totally no rank to do so.
Dont make me repeat.
I wont speak if you dare to lock your eyes to mine.

2009-01-19T02:33:00.000-08:00

Too afraid to fall in love again,
Too afraid to let go,
On th verge of giving up.
This is not what i want,
Not want i anticipated,
I have too much of th complications.
This is where someone hurt me too much,
It cant heal no more,
No one can heal it.
I wont trust love anymore.
This is th last time.

2009-01-19T02:17:00.000-08:00

Kavi "He put that same name &pm for th past one year, now suddenly change obviously don love you le?'
Me "Idk, Ask him yourself lo, what you expect me to say? i cry everyday le wad?! tamade"
Kavi "Suit yourself, since you guys are on th verge of breaking"
Me "Kay fine"
How observant of her?
Same line, what more can i ask for? fuck?
Mood like bullshyt these days, 1.Studies 2. Homework 3.He doesn even talk to me.
Don love then don love la cry also cry le, just that haven try to die before, i'll try that soon.

2009-01-19T01:33:00.001-08:00

weee i love this <3

2009-01-18T03:37:00.000-08:00

I HATE YOU!
I HATE YOU BLOG!
I HATE THIS FKING BLOG!
IM SOSO TIRED OF CHANGING AND CHANGING!
http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=161765&action=Preview
I WANT THIS T.T
LOL.

2009-01-15T03:12:00.000-08:00

Ohno (!)

I think i like girls (so not love !)
Girls are meant to be gorgeous ain it ? (applies for some particular ones)
No, they were meant for my eyes :DD
Ohno im a lesbian (!)
Doesn matter no more , nothing matters now (my regular setence)
Who cares if im a lesbian .
I seriously have no sense of humour or any reaction .

Dot (!)

Yes, Life is about making choices,
I can choose to listen to what people are saying behind my back &stay sad for th rest of th days/
Stay happy, Be myself, dont listen .

Idk what to say or do.
I get hurt easily, supa easily.

2009-01-14T05:35:00.002-08:00

Went into room &saw sister crying bout school,
i admit i hated school from pri1-6 but trust me sis, thou i always talk crap and get punched , this is th truth, you'll enjoy school to th deep gist , to th highest climax when you're in sec 1 , you'll start to realise that people give you more freedom &no longer treat you as a primary school kid. I hated school cus i have to stand in th rain at five plus waiting for taxi on rainy days when im pri 1-3 , believe it or not, its so so cold that my legs shiver and my text books get so wet that teacher look at me as if im a bad student. pri1-2, reaching school late everyday , standing outside school singing national anthem with th cars passing by behind me. sometimes all alone, its not that i love to be late, its my father being so dilly dally. Being so blur in pri school that i don even und whats english so all th instructions cher give me was passing remarks. Always get homework marked wrong &corrections all over th place. Waiting outside school till tears roll down my cheeks for my dad to fetch me. it was about 7pm already. Skipping pe lessons cus of my illness and having seated there with people looking at me as if my illness is contagious. Getting bullied by girls, they took my pocket money everyday that it become a regular basis that our parents have to come down.
Stalking my male partner to th male toilet and being laughed at me. i should have said this >.>
Being threatened by th girls to kiss my male partner. Lucky i din give him my first kiss LOL. as th girls were busy kissing him. LOL.
Having pulled up to th stage by cher and in classroom for being th scapegoat of notorious classmates.

2009-01-14T05:11:00.000-08:00

Mother just added salt to my wound..
Told me to go to temple on NCY ..
I feel uneasy all over when they talk bout religion stuff.. dono y..
I believe in buddhism but why did i feel like its not for me ..
Especially when i stepped into th temple , just have giddy spells &mood swings.

2009-01-14T05:00:00.001-08:00

Cher kept telling me to smile.

Dot, not that i donwan to, i cant.

Its so hard to force a smile.

I donwanna put on a sad face either.

I donwanna put on such a brave front either, i just want to cry out everything deep down &then smile for th rest of my life.

But this thing deep down is too heavy to be unload, i need five years to do so. Trust me.

2009-01-13T04:41:00.005-08:00

I feel soso bad!
Down at in th pit , veryvery down. As if no one's gonna help me. Its true. No one did.
Life , is this how you insult me? Why? Just becus i did sth veryvery wrong in past &din admit it, ?
But ive felt veryvery exceedingly guilty these years, those blueskies,stars,clouds,every beautiful thing on this earth tormented me. I felt so remorse.. as if everything on earth was hunting me .. Why must you insult me over &over again? at a time like this?! When he turned &heck care me?!Tell me why.
Cus i deserved it? No! Or is it that i killed two ants that day?I din kill any living thing besides that day!I gave my pocket money to old people!HOW COULD UUUUU. I was tryna be sarcastic >.> but i really feel soso don &empty deep deep down!
Hor! I rmbed! I smiled at a black cat @635 while walking to th bus stop?Was that a symbol?! It was soso kewt.
IS THAT WHY IM HAVING BADBADBADLUCK THESE DAYS?!
1.He dont care me no more.
2.I drew shitty stuff in art lesson &got held back till four oh seven.
3.I tripped at th doorstep infront of my enemy.
4.Couple hugging @my doorstep &i got warned by mother for nothing!I AINT EVEN TH ONE HUGGING! IF I WANT HUG ALSO HUG WALL WHAT!Whapaing!
5.Forgotten to buy physics book
6.Brought extra books which weigh my bag a tontonton!
7.Forgotten Alisa was in my Chemistry Class &walked soso fast that she couldnt catch up &tio-ed a punch.

SEVEN! MORE TO BE SHORTLISTED AFTER SCHOOL TOMORO?
I should be like Hamtaro de Laura, everynight tell Hamtaro, 'HAMTARO!I BET TOMORO WILL BE EVEN BETTER!'
Wait, ..
BOTAK!TIMOTHY!IBET TOMORO WILL BE EVEN BETTER!
-Takes plastic bag for standby-
I swore i wont make any untrue,unsincere swears to God, Im realrealreall really remorse. Please don't do this to me no more!
Tell you what, i'll still smile to that cat if i sees it tomoro morning.
Haha talking bout cats, got one fatfat cat down my block always sleep in th drain.Then whenever i crossed th drain, i'll see him under my feet. Trust me, i wont go like,'HI FAT CAT! :DD' No , i screamt. I felt as if i stepped onto him. Aw his greasy fats round his stomach charmed me.

Today, Was no big deal as usual, EXCEPT for literature lessons. Couldn paste Mrs Ng's homeroom location into my head. Then Mr Wun closed th lights &was waiting for me to move to my next lesson(literature!), I was busy flipping my thinthinthin nevereatde file for th directory. My palms sweated a little thinking that i'll be lostlostlost. Then i approached Mr Wun,'AAA Where's Mrs Ng's Homeroom Ah?' 'Idk leis. Should be there!' 'Where?' 'There! Homeroom Block!' Luckily i bumped into Alisa at th stars &she directed me there or else i'll be searching th entire five levels of homeroom block<3 haha :DD

Today, Was trying soso hard(i wouldn dare to say hard as i just drew some &gave up)(But i still typed hard! LOL.) to draw Chen feng Ling/Chen JingXuan/Felicia Chin. Initially i used my frequent sticked-to-it style, by sketchly contracts here &there tryna show th shade of her face. Its was darn horribly initially(true enough, WATCH>) Ms Ng took my paper &was like NOT so happy 'I DON ALLOW THIS STYLE OF DRAWING! REDO!' After some tries.. I gave up. Soso frustrated with myself &totally hated Art. Then i picked up my pencil &tried again woot. I did it! She gave me some directions <3 WOWWWWW ITS MEEEE! MEEEANNN (((:

Tryna be elated, Its was just superficial me. Its feels like tons&tons on my chest deep down. Soso heavy , soso cruel to me. I feel real sad .. Just that i've never showed them, not even at home, never been myself. When i reached home, i just keep quiet &rebel my parents or maybe keep quiet when whoever tries to make trouble. Maybe punching walls till my knuckles swell &nearly bleed. Maybe locking myself in th toilet without lights on to torture myself. Or maybe scratching myself.

Soso devastated bout th past. Ive done many wrong, including myself. Sorry myself.

i wish hyt will come back to me

Ohyea love, this blogskin's for you to see, for me to show how much i love you.

2009-01-12T04:57:00.000-08:00

K i won do this no more ,
wont hurt myself no more.

2009-01-12T00:42:00.001-08:00

Fairytales are soso fake.

I won't &dont trust love no more.

I hate everything now &forever.

Things ain going the way they meant to be.

Tell me why am i experiencing these?

2009-01-11T03:19:00.001-08:00

We're finished

2009-01-11T03:13:00.000-08:00

Thou a goodbye would hurt more ,
My heart stopped the instant you left ,
Without a trace ,
Th whole of me collapsed .

Go to a place ,
A place where i could see no more ,
Of you .

You looked crestfallen ,
When i last saw th beautiful smile of yours fade ,
Where i finally knew its a facade ,
Th whole of you was .

Those promises you made were a burden ,
Not for me ,
No longer it was .

This is where ,
I bury myself in th dark ,
And where you see th last of me .

Germin

2009-01-11T00:58:00.000-08:00

Germin is veryvery devastated .
No one bothers .
&Why would they bother ?
Another part of her just died .

She cried soso hard .
Where , you don wan her eventually .